A question I started to ask as a twelve year old, trying to make sense of the world I found myself in, was “what life existed beyond my body”. At that time, the thought was possibly stimulated by a visit to South Africa by Uri Geller, known at the time as a psychic that could bend spoons with his mind and get watches that had stood still for years to work again, both live with an audience and over the radio.
My question now is, why do I have a body, and does my body have a soul, or does my soul have a body?
I have come to believe, that I am an eternal, unlimited soul, that in this incarnation has this particular vehicle to experience life through, called my body.
On a purely practical level, my nursing training and studies since qualifying as a Registered Nurse and working with so many bodies, has enthralled me with the absolute wonders of the human body, and what a unique, integrated, self-healing, sensory, expressive, dynamic creation it is. My body alone is evidence that there must be a Creator, as there’s no way I could be an accident, and I’ve never met a body less amazing, although they are all vastly different and unique.
I have found that my body feels intimately one with the physical world around me. I can relate dynamically to the earth, the trees, the rocks, the animals and of course with other human bodies, just on a body to body level. But it’s far more than that. Everything I’ve encountered on this planet has an energy about it, and I perceive it as being alive. I can relate to that energy or life force and sense how it affects my body, and even different parts of my body. My body also reacts to extraterrestrial energetic influences. I don’t mean alien beings, but to the cycles of the moon, to exposure to the varying levels and intensity or absence of sunlight, to the change in the seasons and even to the changing energies through the 24 hours of the day.
My body is a beautiful communication tool, and I can sense emotions, positive and negative, from people around me, nearby and at a distance, individually and group energies, and I find I’m drawn to some people, feel the need to keep my distance from others, and repulsed by others – not by assessing my reactions to my five physical senses, but a simple perception of energy, beyond right and wrong, good and bad… beyond judgment.
When I take the time to listen to my body, I know what to wear, what to eat, where to go, who to interact with, almost as if my body is in touch with the physical world around me and then gives me, the body’s spiritual tenant, feedback on how to effectively navigate the physical, limited world, bound by time and space and consequences.
After the loss of my baby daughter, Faye, many years ago, that really set me on a journey of discovery, and the recent loss of my dear Father, I am all too aware that my body, although dynamic, has a limited life span. Although I’ve learned that there are many modalities including diet, breath, exercise, thoughts, words, and non-medical interventions that can sustain my body, allow it to self-heal, and slow the ageing process, as an organism, like every cell in that body, it will undergo apoptosis, and has a day that it will no longer function, and the world will say I have died. With the realisation of the brevity of life, I also realised that I am not ONLY a body, but also a mind and a soul, both of which gives my body meaning and purpose. And that purpose means that my body is not just a vehicle for my soul and a vessel for my mind, but is in itself a vital cog in the finely tuned mechanism that is my eternal soul, as I experience the world through my body, and express my soul and create my mind through my body.
I am grateful for this body, uniquely different from all other bodies, and I try live free of the judgments created by medical science’s “normal values” for bodies and the media’s projected expectations of what makes a desirable body and what bodies are shamed and judged.
My body is amazing, and I thank it for giving me the perfect vehicle for my soul, to interact, hopefully positively contributing and learning and growing in those interactions, with the physical and spiritual world around me.
My body gives my life meaning, gives my soul expression, and makes life an adventure.
My mind values my body and my soul thanks you for all you have done.
I’m sorry for any time I have not appreciated you.
Please forgive me for taking you for granted in my ignorance at times.
I thank you for you have allowed me to experience and share and look forward to even more.
I love you, as you are unique, perfect for me, and uniquely mine.